it's finally August 1st, 2013. only 7 days left for me staying cozy and comfort in my home country ,Thailand. I've started packing since Sunday. All this week I'v been partying with my close friends, kissing goodbye, celebrating friend's graduation, saying goodbye to teachers at school and so. So the friends part is almost done. This week is for family and close relatives: my grandpas grandmas espicially.
Damn it! I could say I'm freaking out right now. I try to stay calm in front of people but I cried like a baby and couldn't sleep for almost 4 weeks now. Not that I'm scary, but just because I have no idea what's waiting for me half way across the world. I'm kind of excited-but-worried. and I cried because, I don't know, deep down inside I feel like once I jump on the plane, I'd not coming back home THAT EASY.
My English teacher, Mr.Harry,understands me well. He explained to me that it's not like in Eurpoe or America where kids leave their parents' home when they turned 18, and they have to learn to survive on their own since then. Which is definitely not the Asian way where children were taught to stay together in large family with grandparents parents and kids. But since I'm about to leave soon, he gave me one idiom for me to remember (or to tell my mom) : "The baby bird stays with mama and papa until it learns how to fly, mama papa will teach it to fly, it's scary and hard at first, but once the baby bird is strong enough to fly, it flies away and never comes back."
So, I guess, and hope that my wings are big enough. I think I need to be ready to fly. Wish me luck.
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